Thursday, April 23, 2015


I drafted a post. Updates on the kids, me, work drama. Before I hit publish it occurred to me to ask ... who am I writing this for?  The blog has ceased to be any kind of good record of life with the kids. The few readers I have are also my Facebook friends (who see the shiny side of my life) and twitter followers (who see my bouts with self-doubt, anger, selfishness, stupidity, and occasional humor).
A few of my fellow MILP bloggers are still at it, and I try to read (and even occasionally get comments to work on my phone).

But I don't know whether I have anything left to say here.

Thursday, January 08, 2015

Sooo, six months later

I am still alive.

My kids & husband are fine.

So, here's the deal. I don't presently have a laptop or other device from which I can conveniently blog. But that's only part of it. Blogging became less of a priority. I mean, obviously. Cobwebs around here.  From over 100 posts per year, to 23(!?) in 2014, most of which were MILP roundup links before it just ... stopped. Yeah.

But ... I miss it. I miss my bloggy friends, even though the best of you are also my Facebook friends. I miss having a place where I catalog the mundane and wonderful and terrible moments of motherhood. I never did develop a good way to write about my job or the law in general in way that felt both authentic and safe, but I miss the idea of that writing.

Work continues to be deeply unsatisfying, but my youngest daughter woke up with a fever and I was able to stay home today without a moment's hesitation, so I have too much to be grateful for to complain. Pip pip chin up and all that.

This isn't a comeback. But it isn't a farewell either. It's an update.

Lionfish is awake from her nap.

Be well.

Tuesday, July 08, 2014

Happenings: Me edition

After ten years in this house, we are finally attempting a kitchen remodel. It's a good thing too, because the dishwasher and refrigerator broke in the same week. It's as if the entire house is screaming "enough already!" Pretty damn exciting around here. Sure, our fridge is in the dining room and we're pretty much grilling and/or toasting, but exciting.

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We're in week two of a different CSA this year. Also, because June was just gorgeous, we have the most awesome garden we ever have grown. We have tomato plants over five feet tall and covered in green fruit, as well as cucumber and zucchini plants with blossoms. Bullshark even through in some new things, like celery and radishes. And everything is taking off.  Right now, we have lots of lettuce in the fridge. A LOT. Lettuce with sliced almonds and craisins and red wine vinaigrette dressing has been my go to lunch for days, and yet, there is always more lettuce.

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I'm on my summer 7:30 to 4 schedule and my commute/work life is so much more tolerable now.

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There is a rumor of a possibility of a job opening sometime in the near future -- a job I would like a lot, but one that would result in a substantial pay cut and not much more in the way of work-life balance or other trade offs. At least, I am pretty sure it would be a pay cut, but I am attempting to gather intel. Stay tuned.

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Speaking of the job, my new duties as Project Manager of (something huge) have taken off. It's nice to be the go to person for something, but I don't get paid any more for the extra hassle, and the work is often mid-numbingly awful. Pretty much everyone I tell about my new responsibilities (even when I put my post positive spin on it) says "ugh better you than me." Yay me. Regardless of whether I apply for something new, I'd want to see this through to the end ... the same grim determination that kept me from running screaming from the classroom each day during my final year of teaching, I suppose.

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I've gained weight. Like a lot. Not all of it. But a lot. This makes me sad.

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Iced coffee regular. I still love it.

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I discovered hard apple cider. Angry Orchard Crisp Apple. Summer in a bottle.

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Tweets, from the twitter:

Coworker who has been out sick for a week stumbles into my office & sticks out tongue to show me that its swollen/coated so I can tell boss. So inappropriate, so gross, and now I am wiping everything in sight with Lysol wipes. Ewwww.

 My mom visited and brought wine... white Zinfandel like its 1997 and I don't know any better. Ahh memories.

Transcript line of the day. Divorce case. Judge: I don't watch reality television but seriously ... have you two applied for your own show?

 Continuing saga of 'who let me mom on Facebook': At three a.m. she is liking photos I posted in 2009.

 Ever have one of those moments when you're like WHEN DID I BECOME THIS? My Sunday: Soccer, play date at park, Target, driving a minivan.

 Why do i bother doing dishes when they're only getting used again tomorrow? I mean I probably have a weeks worth of clean wine glasses so...

Monday, June 30, 2014

MILP #353: Dollar Short Edition

Week ending June 29.

The Weekly MILP (Moms In the Legal Profession) Roundup is exactly what it sounds like. We're moms. We're lawyers. We blog. And a rotating group of fabulous hostesses rounds it all up each week.

This Roundup is a day late. And I often feel a dollar short. So I'm calling it a theme.

Magic Cookie. The terror of the day late when you're not planning on a third kid.
Mommy & Sin City. Bank manager training leaving her feeling wanting.
Shannon. Seven hours in a car, kid-free. And money on the highway.
FOTD. The rooms of happy kids never look like the Pottery Barn catalog.
Lag Liv. Investment: Best. Cammo Pants. EVAR!! Also, kid awesomeness.

A little harder to fit in the theme, but here are other posts of the week:

Queen of Hats. These milestones need their own book. Some serious TRUTH up in here.
Daisy. Busy week, hopefully followed by some lazy time.
Dinei. Lactating is funny. Pizza is delicious.
Alice. No sick days for a mom.
Kate. Time for reflection and answering the "what do I want to do" question.
RG Wraps up June with kid pics and birthdays.
Grace: Two years post-op checkup for Lis.
HBE. Stay Baby. 24 weeks.

Apologies for missing anyone. Will attempt to post something of substance soon. You can always find me on Twitter -- I can post quickly from my phone, which I just can't do here. And my basement computer (where I am writing this) is on its last legs. This post has crashed three times since I started drafting.

The weekly Mothers In the Legal Profession Roundup is hosted on a rotating basis at the ButterflyfishGraceBJJ, Law, and LivingMommy and the Sin CityMagic Cookie,The Reluctant Grownup, and Perspectives of a Hard Boiled Egg blogs.

Monday, June 23, 2014

Sunday, June 15, 2014

MILP #351

Reluctant Grownup had the Roundup for the week ending June 15.


Monday, June 09, 2014

MILP #350

Magic Cookie had an "in her own words" version for the week ending June 8.


Monday, June 02, 2014

MILP #349

Mommy and Sin City had the Roundup for the week ending June 1.

Tuesday, May 27, 2014

Sunday, May 25, 2014

MILP #348

Kate had the Roundup for the week ending May 25.

Saturday, May 17, 2014

More mini-posts

I took one of my daughters out for special day today. (I was visiting friends for brunch out of town.) I really couldn't bring both, and I thought the older one would handle the travel etc. better than the other. And she did, and we had a lovely day. But more than once AF said "I miss LF, she would have loved this!"  And, back home, LF wasn't crying, but she did inquire after her sister a few times. I really hope this sister-friend thing continues.

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My mom is on facebook now and it is both hilarious and frustrating. She recently got a tablet and we got wireless internet all hooked up in her home. She can barely use the tablet, but, at all hours, she goes through old photos on my page and that of each of my siblings and hits "like." Hundreds of "like" notifications over the past few weeks ... on photos from as far back as 2007. At 2 a.m. 

She called me yesterday absolutely horrified at the "language" her son, the teacher, was using on his page. She was prepared t call him and tell him off. A few questions later, I discovered that he regularly likes/shares posts from a page called "I fucking love science." So, yeah, not his language.

Also, she has randomly "checked in" at donut shops. She denies she ever having been to one. 

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I got a ticket this week. Speeding has been alleged. I deny all of the elements of the offense and leave the state to its proof.

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You know what tastes crazy good? Grilled cheese and whole grain mustard.
Also, collared greens with bacon and apple cider vinegar.

Monday, May 12, 2014


I considered applying for a law firm job. There was an opening for an associate at a firm that I respect doing work I would like. And then my son got sick. We've had multiple iterations of stomach bugs and a step/sinus infection thing in the last two weeks. And, several times, I was able to drop everything and go home and take care of him and not have to think of work again until I returned. And that is not insignificant.

I didn't apply.

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Mother's Day Loot:
Breakfast at a diner, playground on the beach, hearing "I did it Mommy" multiple times (my favorite words), chocolate covered strawberries (shared, of course), bakery salted caramel shortbread cookies (shared but husband got a separate stash just for me!), a basil plant and some red flowers for the garden, minimal arguing, several loads of laundry, playing Thomas trains, more playground time, ice cream, and Chipotle for dinner. Oh, and uninterrupted time to write the roundup and this post.
In short: I made out like a bandit.

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I have been a fan of Alton Brown for a long time. He has started a web series airing weekly on Youtube. They are super short videos, but really have the Good Eats vibe. It's my new favorite Internet thing. Cook Smart.

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I keep hearing that we're in some sort of golden age of television. But I haven't seen almost any of the shows that people are talking about, like Mad Men or Breaking Bad. I have seen some of Orphan Black though. There's some hella talented acting going on there.

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We may actually, finally, be undertaking a kitchen remodel. The biggest source of disagreement between my husband and I has nothing to do with paint colors or cabinet knobs. It is whether or not we should involve my father in the project. Balancing money against marital / family harmony.

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Highly fictionalized account of something that may or may not have actually happened.
Male Attorney: Butterflyfish, you're a girl and I am a boy.
Me: Yep.
Male Attorney: I think photocopying is menial and totally beneath me.
Me: Yep.
Male Attorney: Would you photocopy these for me?
Me: Nope.
Male Attorney: Okay, I'll only talk to you about attorney things from now on.
Me: *mental high five to myself*