Everyone has a totally irrational fear, I am sure. Spiders, heights, drowning, flying, birds pecking out your eyeballs... you know, the usual.
But I have a totally irrational fear that has been troubling me lately, because its gruesome and bizarre on a level that I can't quite understand. If you're not in the mood for gruesome and bizarre, like you're reading blogs over breakfast and would prefer to read about sunshine, lollipops, and toddlers doing cute things, click away now.
* * * *
Ok, for the curious and the freaky...
I get this crazy feeling any time I am sitting someplace relatively quiet where there are other people around, but only a couple (think library, quiet cafe). I think someone is going to come up behind me and slit my throat. The image is quite vivid, lasts for a moment or two, and then goes away and I don't have the thought again for a while... sometimes days on end. But because I spend a lot of time in quiet places, it occurs perhaps more than I am comfortable with.
I thought maybe if I wrote about it, it would go away.
So am I alone in this one? Worse? Care to share?
Mine is someone breaking into my house late at night after I'm asleep and then beating the crap out of me. For the last week or so, whenever I wake up in the middle of the night, I sit and listen for the sound of the door and wonder what I'd do. It's great for your sleep schedule. Augh.
ReplyDeleteI dont like being followed when walking up stairs.
ReplyDeleteWhenever I am walking on the sidewalk and there are cars (a few, not a busy street) driving in the same direction I am walking), I imagine that one of them will somehow jump the curb and run me over. This has been happening for years, and it is terrifying.
ReplyDeleteI've developed a fear that I like to think of as "Law & Order Syndrome" - I go running in the park all the time, and I'm absolutely afraid that I'm going to discover a dead body one day.
ReplyDeleteI have a recurring nightmare where I'm trapped in a building. All the exits are locked and there is a monster/psycho/killer chasing me. The bad guy has progressed as I have gotten older, from monster (childhood) to rapist (current). It's not good.
ReplyDeleteIt's so trite/cliche/something out of "Psycho," but sometimes when I'm in the shower I'll become convinced that I've heard the front door to the apartment open and that someone is about to open the bathroom door and attack me. And, like Ana, I freeze and wonder what I'd do if someone actually came through the door. Makes for quick showers, though.
ReplyDeleteI hate deadend streets. I think I'm always afraid that somehow I will get lost and end up on one when it's dark and get attacked, like something out of a horror movie.
ReplyDelete