I am suffering from post-exam regret. I am an issue-spotting demon... after the fact.
I find myself feeling like I totally blew the first question of my property exam -- a policy question that I really only discussed about half-way through, if that. I could totally rock it NOW. I just didn't then. It was not my finest bit of exam writing *by far* and thinking about it now makes me feel a little sick, knowing its my first impression on the overall test. I'd be inclined to grade me down based on that inanity. Shit. Property was the one subject I felt good about going in.
I am wondering about the interpleader question on Civ Pro -- there was some ambiguity about one party. Maybe I was supposed to do a Rule 24 discussion too? Shit, I was just happy I recognized interpleader. And don't talk to me about the Erie question -- I get Erie, I was prepared for Erie, but what the hell was that? Fortunately, everyone reacted that way to the Erie question, so my somewhat-disorganized-desperation-in-the-last-moments-of-the-exam answer will hopefully save me from sliding off the end of the curve. Or not.
I don't find myself thinking much about what I didn't write in Con Law, just maybe wishing I had written some of it better. Which is even scarier, because if you always miss something on an exam, and I don't even know what I missed...
Contracts has me slightly out of my mind whenever I allow myself to think about it. 6 credits, you know? 12 mini-fact patterns. 15 minutes each. I knew I screwed up one question during the exam itself -- I just couldn't remember the third part of the rule of the case the fact pattern was based on. Got the other two parts cold, so maybe not so bad.
I didn't want to talk about Contracts when it ended. I was planning to run, not walk, to the exit. I didn't want to know if I missed anything else.
But after the exams were turned in, and I was packing up the laptop, someone called out "Hey, number 8, was that just a strange way of asking about impracticability?" After the general murmur of assent, my reaction was F*CK! I didn't discuss that at all. I knew it cold, I just didn't recognize it as an issue -- I discussed material breach on #8. F*ckity f*ck f*ck f*ck!
Its a psychotic system -- where a year's work comes down to a three hour series of fact patterns. I knew it when I signed on. But its nuts, you know? Just nucking futs.
Getting drunk is not a good enough solution to this ... this nagging feeling of failure, of being less than I knew I could be ...
I just want my damn grades so I can come to the final stage of grief, acceptance.