I have not had a positive pregnancy test since three years ago this month. May 2007. A few weeks thereafter, I got my period. I've been told I wasn't "really" pregnant -- my body just temporarily thought it was. Called a chemical pregnancy. Bullshit. I called it a miscarriage.
We have been trying for years, but we didn't plan to start any interventions until later this summer / fall because of my *new one-year job* which starts soon. I mean, I had an extensive track record that said that I wasn't getting pregnant any time soon . . . not on my own anyway. We were never careful. Why would we be? My uterus was its own birth control device.
So I just had a completely unexpected positive pregnancy test. And did a second to be sure. I called my doc Friday, but she didn't get back to me. No worries. I'll call Monday.
So, great right? Hasn't planned on saying anything more, even here, until I confirmed with a doctor this week. All is well.
Until...
At about 1:30 in the morning last night, I had excruciating pain that woke me up. Even though I made all the recommended dietary changes, I had another f***ing kidney stone attack. There needs to be a word that means knife-stabbing-horror-pain. But I didn't go to the emergency room like last time. Why? They'd want to x-ray me. I can't get an x-ray. They'd want to prescribe really strong pain meds. I can't take really strong pain meds. Plus I know what it is this time. So I thought I'd grit my teeth and put up with it til morning.
I didn't sleep. I googled and found out I should consume lemon juice every hour. I consumed lemon juice. I stood in the shower and let the water relax me some. I watched Lady Gaga videos. I walked the halls. The minutes ticked by slowly. At 3:30, I couldn't take it. So I took some Advil. Because I know that the pain would get out of control and if I didn't get ahead of it, I might end up needing those really strong prescription meds after all. And at 4:30, the pain subsiding somewhat, I fell asleep again for an hour.
I know Tylenol is the preferred pain med during pregnancy. Tylenol doesn't work on kidney pain, in my experience. Advil/Motrin does.
Now I am doubly terrified. 1) that I am not really pregnant. 2) that I really am, and I've hurt the baby.
Don't expect me to be logical. I am tired. I'll keep you posted once I've seen a doctor.
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Oh, and FYI, other than hubby, no one in real life knows about any of this.
You and bullshark are in my thoughts and prayers. I had a ruptured ectopic pregnancy in the middle of law school and it was really rough emotionally as well as physically so I know some of what you're going through. My hubby and I are still trying but waiting until after the bar for any "intervention."
ReplyDeleteI'm going to just think good thoughts for a quick kidney stone eradication & a bouncing bubbly baby. Feel better.
ReplyDeleteFirst of all congrats on the positive test! and damn, that sounds like a completely horrible night. For the record, you can take some pretty powerful pain meds when you're pregnant- it all depends on their chemical composition and what can pass the through the placenta. Vicodin and many varieties of it are perfectly safe. Also, advil isn't advised purely because it changes the shape of the red blood cells which makes it easier to bleed out during delivery - at this stage of your pregnancy, it shouldn't have any negative effects whatsoever. (Insert disclaimer that I'm not a doctor, don't rely on my advice alone, etc. It's just that with my severe headaches and back pain, I've had a lot of pain-medicine-related discussions with multiple OBs during this pregnancy. I took advil when needed to ward off a headache up through my 2nd trimester, on the advice of my doctor, because it was so much more effective for me than anything else. I stopped at 27 weeks as delivery got closer).
ReplyDeleteAnyway, I hope you get to the doctor soon! They won't x-ray you if you tell them not to and they'll be the best at coming up with a plan of care that makes you feel better without hurting those little cells you've hopefully got multiplying like crazy inside you.
Thinking very positive thoughts!
*hug*
ReplyDeletei'm thinking good thoughts for you. i hope you feel better soon, and hope that you have another happy, healthy child on the way.
Congratulations on the positive test!
ReplyDeleteI'm 20 weeks pregnant. Two weeks ago, I fell down and broke my ankle in three spots. I went to the ER and they had to do x-rays on me. I even had to have surgery -- spinal block and pain meds (percocets). I didn't think that I would be able to take ANY pain meds apart from good old extended release tylenol. I took Percocet for three days and then switched back to Tylenol and now am taking nothing because my pain is nothing. Talk to your doctor about what you can take for the pain...because, like LL said, it all depends on composition.
I wish you the best of luck and I hope that you get better soon!
Tylenol doesn't work to treat ANYTHING for me. It just sucks. I hope everything is okay, you are one tough cookie!
ReplyDeleteCongrats, my baby was a surprise after 7 years with no birth control. I had only been pregnant once and miscarried, so I just didn't think it would happen. Boy you never really know, do you?
I've heard cranberry juice rather than lemon juice, that's a new one.
yay- omg, I hoped this is that your previous post was about! my thoughts are with you- kidney stones sound horrible and talk about bad timing! I hope all is well and look forward to hearing more good news!
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