So I am no longer working at the best job I've ever had. I knew it was only for a year going in, and a year is up. To say that I was sad for it to end would be an understatement. To say that I blamed the tears on 'pregnancy hormones' would be ... absolutely true.
I am poised to begin the Lucy Job -- another one-year gig, but in a very different atmosphere. The Lucy Job will (hopefully) open more doors in my future and will (hopefully) lead to a permanent job that I will enjoy and be happy doing. I have a few days off to get my stuff together, to spend time with my family, and to get Clownfish packed off to first grade. First grade for him, new job for me: 9/1.
I am more anxious about starting the new job than I thought I would be. It could be because I have to drop the "by the way, I'm pregnant" bomb in the first week. It could be because I am not really sure what my options are yet, and am not really sure what I need to ask for. It could be because we are still exploring our childcare options, but that once I start, time will be like a speeding freight train heading toward my due date. It could be that, deep inside, I am not remotely convinced I am qualified to be doing what I will be doing. It could be the commute -- an hour each way, in good weather. It could be that everyone already wants to know "what's next" and I feel pretty confident that getting through this year will be enough to think about, thankyouverymuch.
No no no no! Do not doubt yourself! You got the Lucy Job so clearly someone thought you were qualfied. You've got a solid year of experience under your belt, and all of that experience is relevant, whether you think it is or not.
ReplyDeleteAs for the baby, what are they going to do? It's not like you planned to be due in the middle of the year. People get pregnant. Tell them you're willing to be flexible and go from there. And if it's awful, just remember -- it's just a year. You'll learn a ton whether it's your second Best Job Ever or not -- and you still leave with the awesome credential on your resume.
(And seriously, ignore the people asking "what's next?". I got so sick of those people. I couldn't answer that question until late May and I have colleagues who still don't have an answer to that question. Ignore. Ignore.)
I second that! Don't doubt yoruself! There is a reason you stood out and you got the job. NEw jobs are always scary and exciting and you just have to remember that it will take a while to get into a new routine. But you can do it!
ReplyDeleteJust think of the pregnancy as another way to prove how competent you are. I mean once they see that you are doing a great job and that you are doing it while having pregnancy brain and having to deal with pregnancy discomforts- I'm sure you will stand out!
Good luck!
BTW- thanks for the advice on the new blog address- Im using http://wildnorthwestlitigator.blogspot.com/ now!
Good luck -- the job sounds great, and I'm sure once you get there and settle in, you'll be more excited than anxious.
ReplyDeleteThat's a lot of crazy stress, lady, especially while pregnant. I know I personally put a lot of "what's next" pressure on myself. Hopefully you can calm the internal and external voices and just enjoy "what's now!" :)
ReplyDeleteGood luck!!
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