- Lionfish is a very pretty baby. She has long fingers and dark hair and eyes and a sweet little face. When she's curled up on my chest like a little kitten, snoring lightly, its mommy heaven.
- She's strong. She lifts her head and moves so much.
- She's growing quickly. So quickly. Too quickly? Happy/sad.
- The nursing situation has improved -- less cracking and bleeding, some trauma and soreness, but no crying (on my part) lately.
- Two babies crying simultaneously is not awesome.
- I haven't begun pumping yet because omg I don't know when I am supposed to find the time. I feel like, during the day, when I'm not holding the baby, I am holding or playing with Angelfish. At night, if/when I get to put the baby down for more than ten minutes, I use that time to sleep!
- Lionfish wants to be held... pretty much all the time, but especially between 5 p.m. and 8 a.m. During the morning rush to get Clownfish ready and feeding Angelfish breakfast, etc., I pop her in the Baby Bjorn.
- Right now, Wednesday morning, I'm kind of overwhelmed. I feel hungry all the time, I'm eating crap, its raining so I can't get outside, and Angelfish is crabby, and it has literally taken me almost two hours to construct this sentence. Lionfish pretty much won't fall asleep unless she's held. If I put her down before she's asleep deeply enough, she awakes and wails. (Note: Bullshark comes home & makes dinner every night and tries to give me a break in the evening, but the last few days, he's had tons of work to do at night, and he's exhausted too. I can't say that my partner is anything other than supportive and awesome -- its just reality that my sleep schedule sucks right now, and I am depressed and overwhelmed as a result.)
- Right now, Thursday morning. Last night, I got more sleep (poor Bullshark got much less), but I'm less overwhelmed today. It also helps that I just dropped Angelfish off at daycare. (She goes two days a week to reserve her spot for the fall.)
Thursday, May 10, 2012
Disjointed thoughts drafted throughout the last two days.